I’m feeling a little confused.

After my entire “FUCK” realization, I’ve calmed down a bit.  I’m on the hunt for a super awesome therapist, and I just ordered some books about trauma and somatic experiences, so I can understand what’s going on a bit more in my body.

Then today, I started to read The Power of Now, which has been on my shelf for a couple of weeks.

Everything in that book resonates deep within me.  Eckhart Tolle rarely thinks about the past – he’s moved beyond it, he’s found inner peace.

This is everything I’ve ever believed in.  I even wrote something about it – about how I am not my story, which, I tried to link here, but for the life of me, I cannot figure out where I posted the blog or post or when.

So now I’m confused, instead of upset.

Am I supposed to be letting go of the past? Or am I supposed to be processing it?

Am I supposed to be transcending our earthly experience, or connecting to it?

If I take Door #1, is this just me avoiding my life?  If I take Door #2, am I violating the fundamental laws of a spiritual existence – to let go, walk beyond it…?

Do I really need a therapist, or do I just need more meditation?

Maybe a bit of both can’t hurt until I can figure out what’s going on.


About the Author

Posted by

Amie is a human. She teaches yoga and writes and writes about yoga. She is not perfect, and she embraces her imperfections and writes about them here:


archive, Blog, Uncategorized

Add a Response

Your name, email address, and comment are required. We will not publish your email.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

The following HTML tags can be used in the comment field: <a href="" title="" rel=""> <abbr title=""> <acronym title=""> <b> <blockquote cite=""> <cite> <code> <del datetime=""> <em> <i> <pre> <q cite=""> <s> <strike> <strong>

%d bloggers like this: